I'm so far gone now... i've been running on empty. I cant believe you'd stoop so low to make me feel like complete shit just to spite me. I've done so much for you, and what do i get in return? Hateful words, insecurity, and a crushed heart. You know me better than anyone. And i'm starting to think that you're taking advantage of that. I know I left you in a rut, and i'm a shit person because of it. I cant be there for you 24/7 and i'm sorry for that. I have a life too. And I saw an opportunity and I took it. I've helped you out as best as I could and you damn well know that. And i know that i can say all the words that i want to you but it will NEVER make a difference to you. Never has. Never will. i'm just a sad sack of a person who doesnt deserve shit. Damn, old habits die hard. I have no way out. Only if I had something near me right about now... I need a release, badly. I dont want to see my mom die. But she's going to. And sooner than expected. I shouldnt have been so naive. | 
